Woman At Point Zero. Story of female destiny

             

                      “Let me speak. Do not interrupt me. I have no time to listen to you,”

 

 

The story of firdaus is a remarkable one, it represents the hardships women go through in Egypt as many middle Eastern countries and patriarchal societies. Firdaus’s storytelling is moving, heartfelt, and honest. A story of victim of capitalism, patriarchy and oppressive regime of Sadat.

Nawal Saadawi is an Egyptian Anarcho-feminist, doctor, novelist, and leftist revolutionary, if you want to know more about her ( click here ) .  Saadawi was conducting a study on the effects of prison on female prisoners when she came across Firdaus in Qanatir Prison. She heard of Firdaus from a doctor who believed that Firdaus is incapable of killing a man and thus unworthy of a death penalty. Firdaus refused to see anyone, she barely ate, but after repetitive appeals from Nawal to meet her, she finally agreed to tell her story a day before the judgment .

Firdaus’ struggle is to claim her body as her own. Since her childhood, decisions concerning her were never hers to take, her parents cut off her clitoris at a young age. Her uncle took her away when her parents died, and then he did whatever he pleased with her fragile body, eventually he forced her to marry a man so old when she was only 19 of age. Men in the street look at her as if her body existed only for them, to please them.

Firdaus comes from a poor family, she got to school and had a high school certificate, but she never made it to the university. First reason, her uncle was a man of religion, a scholar, and for him it was shameful to his honor to send his niece to a mixed university where she will be seated side by side to men. Second reason, her uncle saw her dowry could help him, and make him get rid of her. Firdaus wanted to finish her studies, she liked to read, it gave her room for imagining a bigger greater world where she can escape.

Women in the story all suffer from imprisonment, an invisible cage designed to trap women. All females that Firdaus encountered are living in illusions, weather it is marriage, work, religion, or respect. Firdaus did every role a woman is destined to do in a patriarchal society, she did the housewife, the daughter, the student, the worker, and the prostitute, and she came up with the conclusion that all of these only imprisoned her. All men in the story sought of Ferdaus as a territory made for them, her father to beat her, and everyone else to abuse her sexually, literally all men she met.

She was never expected to have an opinion on things, until she escaped the marriage. She was surprised and confused when she was asked weather she prefers oranges or tangerines. Nawal Saadawi took it that far to accentuate the extent women are not allowed to have a taste of their own, to not have a choice.

Firdaus embraces death. For her it is liberating, it is freeing. Death alone can save her from her misery, and her destiny of a woman. She believes that women whatsoever their class, or status are suppressed, are not free from male dominance, and she wants to escape her destiny.

I Believe that this is a must read for feminist from all over the world, it is relevant, poignant, and moving. The storyline is relatable for women from all regions of the world. Plus it is a short but powerful read.